This week has been interesting

[xp_wallflower]

I'm on my last year of Fellowship for Emergency Medicine, which means eventually I'm going to have to figure out where exactly I want to work in the long run.

While there are many choices, I would like to stay close enough to the mansion to avoid any awkward conversations with my superiors as to why I need to skip off in the middle of the day. (Not that we don't have more than enough people here to cover emergencies but large issues have happened in the past that needed all people on deck. )

There are some promising placements in New York that might be interesting, or perhaps Westchester itself. I'm not sure I could see myself as a GP.

Of course, there could also be the possibility of going into more study in order to shift to surgery. Or perhaps even going into research? I have been reading some promising epidemiology studies in my spare time. Research does have the benefit of not having to have a 'bedside manner', as it has often been explained that mine is 'lacking'.

While Endocrinology has helped with my unique power set and given me insight into exactly what it is I can and cannot do, it is not where my heart lies.

I am also no teacher. My patience with learners of any kind is non-existent, despite my knowledge that they are trying their best. A fault of mine, I am sure. I have been accused of arrogance before. I am merely aware of my own strengths, and my own weaknesses. Nobody, surely, can blame me for not wanting to deal with children?

I am unsure. Sometimes having a surfeit of choices is worse than having none at all. I am leaning toward research, however.

Comments

[xp_spectrum]

Research. You should definitely do research. When your personal journal entries sound like a report of some kind, you definitely shouldn't be involved with kids. Or teaching them.

P.S.: if you're still trying that whole redemption thing after the mold incident, inverted commas over "bedside manner" and "lacking" don't exactly give anyone confidence you're actually trying. They come off as if you don't believe your bedside manner is lacking and you're being sarcastic.

Just my 0.02 cents. I don't want a fight, I just wanted to point that out since I'm told you have trouble seeing the finer details sometimes.

[xp_wallflower]

I would think that for someone not trying to fight, you are doing an excellent job of trying to call me out on something in public that was a long time ago.

[xp_cypher]

you don't get to decide when someone should or shouldn't be over something

[xp_wallflower]

I get to decide if I engage however. You and I both know how poorly you deal with others making decisions in their own best interest.

[xp_blink]

You have the bedside manner of a moldy doorknob and the people skills to match. So go play with test tubes.

[xp_wallflower]

Right. I have the feeling you may be upset about something here.

[xp_blink]

wrong again, but then, you're good at that

[xp_wallflower]

Would you stop being such a bitch.

[xp_blink]

hmmm.... no. any other questions?

[xp_wallflower]

You are by far my least favourite coworker.

[xp_blink]

well, we agree on something!

[xp_wildchild]

L? When's the last time you actually went outside? During daylight hours?

Cause you're kinda being a butt.

[xp_wallflower]

How am I being a butt? Am I not allowed to talk about my work or life now? People need to find other things to do with their life other than police my journal, don’t you think?

[xp_wildchild]

L. You're putting things in scare quotes and being all detached and 'people are the worst I hate everyone' language.

People don't like, call their bosses 'superiors'.

I know you're like, in the middle of some stressful shit, but you're doing that thing where when you're crazy stressed you start doing this thing where you talk like you think you're smarter than everyone.

[xp_wallflower]

I’m tired, Kyle. That’s all. People will think what they want, how they want. I don’t have enough hours in the day to care about everything they think I should care about.

[xp_wildchild]

You need a nap and pancakes, cause you're being Robot Laurie Destroy All Compassion again.

[xp_wallflower]

Maybe. I will go take a nap, as you say.

[xp_cypher]

sometimes words even fail me

[xp_wallflower]

Yes, well, that’s nothing new, is it?

[xp_cypher]

STAND BY FOR GESTURES

[xp_wallflower]

I am sure they will be just as interesting and illuminating as they always were.

Do try for something new this time at least. We wouldn’t want to bore the rabble.

[xp_cypher]

i've got a great idea laurie

how about instead of wanking on about how you're smarter and better than everyone

you play a rousing game of hide and go fuck yourself

[xp_wallflower]

I wouldn’t want to take over when you’re doing such a wonderful job of that yourself.

[xp_phoenix]

Okay, let's take a break.

[xp_wallflower]

He started it. I was just fine, going about my business.

[xp_phoenix]

I get it. I understand that you started out trying to have a simple conversation. But some of your earlier replies to other people were antagonistic and deliberately mean, which is why he replied the way he did. You can't expect to say something potentially hurtful to someone and not get a reaction.

Think about how you feel when people talk to you like that, now imagine other people feeling the same way. I know it's hard to tell when you might be offending someone but immediately going for the low blow when someone says something only creates more negative emotions for everyone. Do you want to get wrapped up in that?

[xp_wallflower]

I was mean and antagonist? Did we read the same responses?

[xp_phoenix]

What do you think? Have I ever lied to you?

[xp_artie]

You lack the ethics for research.

Have you considered surgery? Most of your patients will be unconscious most of the time you deal with them.

[xp_wallflower]

I think you and I both know that your opinions are unwelcome here. Kindly find someone else to troll.

[xp_artie]

Don't want opinions, don't bring your my little sociopath routine to the table and ask for comments

[xp_wallflower]

I see you’ve decided to try some armchair psychology along with your other wrong opinions.

Let me break it down for you, Artie. If you were the last person on this planet, I would rather spend the rest of my life silent than ever share a conversation with you.

Please do us both the favour of ceasing to interact with me forthwith unless it relates in some way to our jobs. (I doubt this will ever happen)

[xp_artie]

Go to hell and take your sense of smug superiority with you.

We're both of us murderers and complete shit but you pretend you're not, so that makes you worse than me.

[xp_wallflower]

Glad you’re admitting your fault to yourself but don’t believe because you are something, that I am too.

I save lives Artie, I don’t end them.

[xp_darcy]

You can compensate for bad bedside manner by breaking down what's happening in a way people can understand. House was a delightful show, but I'm pretty sure he'd actually lose his license for that sort of behavior in the real world.

[xp_wallflower]

That is helpful. Thank you.