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Moratorium please?
Nov. 23rd, 2021 10:53 amWell, this has been an exciting few months. If people could hold off on any life threatening injuries or jaunts into odd portals for at least a few days, I’m sure the entire Medlab staff would be quite grateful.
Clint, yes, I am talking directly to you. I remember the incident with Namor, don’t think I don’t.
Clint, yes, I am talking directly to you. I remember the incident with Namor, don’t think I don’t.
Notice of absence
Oct. 19th, 2021 10:58 pmI will be leaving the mansion for a trip overseas. I have been informed of an opportunity to take part in a meditation retreat that I am hopeful will help me come to terms with my limitations.
I have been putting it off for quite some time due to my commitments to the mansion as a whole.
Now that the majority of the Medlab patients are stable, or well on the way to recovery, I will not feel as bad concentrating on myself.
I should return late next week. Darcy will be accompanying me for the first day or so of my journey to see me settled but will then return.
I have been putting it off for quite some time due to my commitments to the mansion as a whole.
Now that the majority of the Medlab patients are stable, or well on the way to recovery, I will not feel as bad concentrating on myself.
I should return late next week. Darcy will be accompanying me for the first day or so of my journey to see me settled but will then return.
I am tired
Aug. 23rd, 2021 09:57 amI feel I need to do something outside that does not require science or effort on my part. Might I interest anyone in a trip to New York?
I am told a new designer has opened a boutique in District X and there is quite a buzz.
I am told a new designer has opened a boutique in District X and there is quite a buzz.
Icarus laughed as he fell
Jul. 22nd, 2021 09:34 pm[Voice to text]
“There is a bitter triumph in crashing
when you should be soaring
There is a certain beauty
In setting the world on fire
And watching from the center of the flames”
- ‘Icarus Laughed when he fell’ Unknown
Physiotherapy continues apace and I am seeking information on studies and new therapies but this arm is Neolithic in regards to functionality and fit for purpose.
I feel. You do not want to know how I feel.
Don’t even ask me how I feel about the staring.
“There is a bitter triumph in crashing
when you should be soaring
There is a certain beauty
In setting the world on fire
And watching from the center of the flames”
- ‘Icarus Laughed when he fell’ Unknown
Physiotherapy continues apace and I am seeking information on studies and new therapies but this arm is Neolithic in regards to functionality and fit for purpose.
I feel. You do not want to know how I feel.
Don’t even ask me how I feel about the staring.
Medlab - reduced shifts
Jun. 20th, 2021 03:10 pmSo, now that I have managed to heal enough that I am no longer a danger to myself or others, I will be back in Medlab.
You will all need to be patient with me as I learn to manage this new limitation I have been given.
Suffice to say, I will be on limited duty given that limitation but I'm sure placing band-aids on boo-boos and the occasional check-up when you have the flu is not going to be a stretch.
Please feel free to come and see me with all your limited medical needs.
(If you ask nicely, I'll even let you see the cool lightning scar on my arm. )
You will all need to be patient with me as I learn to manage this new limitation I have been given.
Suffice to say, I will be on limited duty given that limitation but I'm sure placing band-aids on boo-boos and the occasional check-up when you have the flu is not going to be a stretch.
Please feel free to come and see me with all your limited medical needs.
(If you ask nicely, I'll even let you see the cool lightning scar on my arm. )
I am awake
Apr. 11th, 2021 06:45 pmI have been informed that I am once again a cripple, and it is only the great deal of morphine I currently have coursing through my veins that is keeping me from being in a great deal of pain.
I would like very much to be out of this bed so that I can find a way to rid myself of this entirely too much disability.
I am literally having to dictate this via voice to text.
This is untenable. I will not live my life with only one arm. I am a Doctor. I have things to do, I cannot be a cripple. I won’t be. God, I have so much to do, I’m going to need to call work.
Spare me the pity visits and the sad looks. I have no time for it, or any of you.
I would like very much to be out of this bed so that I can find a way to rid myself of this entirely too much disability.
I am literally having to dictate this via voice to text.
This is untenable. I will not live my life with only one arm. I am a Doctor. I have things to do, I cannot be a cripple. I won’t be. God, I have so much to do, I’m going to need to call work.
Spare me the pity visits and the sad looks. I have no time for it, or any of you.
I have a date
Mar. 22nd, 2021 09:05 pmI met him on the subway of all places.
This is not something I thought I would be doing this year.
This is not something I thought I would be doing this year.
I’m not sorry
Feb. 14th, 2021 09:12 pmI refuse to play the game any longer.
I say something, you all treat me like I’m a monster and then I apologise because surely so many people reacting at once can’t be wrong.
No more. You have no more understanding of the world than I do and I refuse to spin myself in knots just for the chance to be insulted again.
I have proven more than once that I am a good person. I won’t be taking any more commentary on what you all think of me.
I say something, you all treat me like I’m a monster and then I apologise because surely so many people reacting at once can’t be wrong.
No more. You have no more understanding of the world than I do and I refuse to spin myself in knots just for the chance to be insulted again.
I have proven more than once that I am a good person. I won’t be taking any more commentary on what you all think of me.
This week has been interesting
Feb. 3rd, 2021 10:32 pmI'm on my last year of Fellowship for Emergency Medicine, which means eventually I'm going to have to figure out where exactly I want to work in the long run.
While there are many choices, I would like to stay close enough to the mansion to avoid any awkward conversations with my superiors as to why I need to skip off in the middle of the day. (Not that we don't have more than enough people here to cover emergencies but large issues have happened in the past that needed all people on deck. )
There are some promising placements in New York that might be interesting, or perhaps Westchester itself. I'm not sure I could see myself as a GP.
Of course, there could also be the possibility of going into more study in order to shift to surgery. Or perhaps even going into research? I have been reading some promising epidemiology studies in my spare time. Research does have the benefit of not having to have a 'bedside manner', as it has often been explained that mine is 'lacking'.
While Endocrinology has helped with my unique power set and given me insight into exactly what it is I can and cannot do, it is not where my heart lies.
I am also no teacher. My patience with learners of any kind is non-existent, despite my knowledge that they are trying their best. A fault of mine, I am sure. I have been accused of arrogance before. I am merely aware of my own strengths, and my own weaknesses. Nobody, surely, can blame me for not wanting to deal with children?
I am unsure. Sometimes having a surfeit of choices is worse than having none at all. I am leaning toward research, however.
While there are many choices, I would like to stay close enough to the mansion to avoid any awkward conversations with my superiors as to why I need to skip off in the middle of the day. (Not that we don't have more than enough people here to cover emergencies but large issues have happened in the past that needed all people on deck. )
There are some promising placements in New York that might be interesting, or perhaps Westchester itself. I'm not sure I could see myself as a GP.
Of course, there could also be the possibility of going into more study in order to shift to surgery. Or perhaps even going into research? I have been reading some promising epidemiology studies in my spare time. Research does have the benefit of not having to have a 'bedside manner', as it has often been explained that mine is 'lacking'.
While Endocrinology has helped with my unique power set and given me insight into exactly what it is I can and cannot do, it is not where my heart lies.
I am also no teacher. My patience with learners of any kind is non-existent, despite my knowledge that they are trying their best. A fault of mine, I am sure. I have been accused of arrogance before. I am merely aware of my own strengths, and my own weaknesses. Nobody, surely, can blame me for not wanting to deal with children?
I am unsure. Sometimes having a surfeit of choices is worse than having none at all. I am leaning toward research, however.
Men are pigs
Aug. 4th, 2020 04:54 pmIf you don’t know why, go look at the article posted in a medical journal supposedly studying social media use by vascular fellows and residents
Sometimes I'm wrong
Feb. 16th, 2020 05:52 pmIt's been brought to my attention by several people that I've been 'A bit not good' lately.
(Shush, I realise that's a Sherlock quote, I was being funny. )
I've spoken to Professor Xavier about going back to my old therapist, and also asked that there be a certain degree of oversight to my ongoing care.
I've never been someone who wished to hurt anyone, but I have and for that I'm sorry.
I'm not saying any of this for forgiveness. I don't expect those who feel frightened of me to change their minds.
I just thought that I wanted to tell you all that I recognise where I am and that I'm getting help.
You're free to do whatever you want with that going forward.
(Shush, I realise that's a Sherlock quote, I was being funny. )
I've spoken to Professor Xavier about going back to my old therapist, and also asked that there be a certain degree of oversight to my ongoing care.
I've never been someone who wished to hurt anyone, but I have and for that I'm sorry.
I'm not saying any of this for forgiveness. I don't expect those who feel frightened of me to change their minds.
I just thought that I wanted to tell you all that I recognise where I am and that I'm getting help.
You're free to do whatever you want with that going forward.
The dreaded night shift
Jan. 31st, 2020 05:31 pmIt’s come around again. I’m doing my Doctor on call rotation in the ER for the next fortnight or so.
When is the next full moon again?
When is the next full moon again?
Reassurance of a sort
Dec. 9th, 2019 06:54 pmIt has been brought to my attention that I might need to reiterate a few powers related facts to all and sundry.
I cannot ostensibly control your mind, or your emotions such as they are.
I can with a certain degree of subtlety change your body’s physical reactions, that were you not aware of it, would have an effect on your emotions, which might in turn influence your decision making processes.
I suppose one might consider that manipulation. But given that you all know what I can do, I would think that my abilities to do it would make it somewhat mute. I admit I’ve gotten stronger since the experiences on Genosha but I am not a telepath, I cannot control your mind. I simply tweek your hormonal reactions.
I do not so so without consent however unless you are an enemy.
Oh, and one more note. I am a Doctor, a specialist in emergency medicine currently doing a further fellowship focusing on medical interventions during crisis situations. If you are going to insult me in some fashion, at least understand what you are insulting me over.
I cannot ostensibly control your mind, or your emotions such as they are.
I can with a certain degree of subtlety change your body’s physical reactions, that were you not aware of it, would have an effect on your emotions, which might in turn influence your decision making processes.
I suppose one might consider that manipulation. But given that you all know what I can do, I would think that my abilities to do it would make it somewhat mute. I admit I’ve gotten stronger since the experiences on Genosha but I am not a telepath, I cannot control your mind. I simply tweek your hormonal reactions.
I do not so so without consent however unless you are an enemy.
Oh, and one more note. I am a Doctor, a specialist in emergency medicine currently doing a further fellowship focusing on medical interventions during crisis situations. If you are going to insult me in some fashion, at least understand what you are insulting me over.
Nightmares and the state of me
Nov. 14th, 2019 08:41 amHalloween was not good for me.
I’m not sure I’ve ever talked to any of you in detail about what happened to myself and Hope while we were
Guests of the Baron.
Hope’s story is her own, I won’t be telling that here today.
My story however...
I was tortured. Kept awake and forced to operate on young mutants. I still have nightmares and I still have to remind myself that what is around me is real. I thought that diving into my work and less time for emotions would be the best solution.
I don’t know that I was wrong entirely. I’ve been accepted for a Fellowship in Emergency medicine, it gives me purpose and a place to be every day where I get to help others.
I don’t know that I’m good for anything else.
I’m in therapy, have been for a very long time now on and off. It’s not that I’m not aware of the issues.
I’m just very tired. It’s hard to do the work every day. It’s hard to stop going cold.
I’m not sure I’ve ever talked to any of you in detail about what happened to myself and Hope while we were
Guests of the Baron.
Hope’s story is her own, I won’t be telling that here today.
My story however...
I was tortured. Kept awake and forced to operate on young mutants. I still have nightmares and I still have to remind myself that what is around me is real. I thought that diving into my work and less time for emotions would be the best solution.
I don’t know that I was wrong entirely. I’ve been accepted for a Fellowship in Emergency medicine, it gives me purpose and a place to be every day where I get to help others.
I don’t know that I’m good for anything else.
I’m in therapy, have been for a very long time now on and off. It’s not that I’m not aware of the issues.
I’m just very tired. It’s hard to do the work every day. It’s hard to stop going cold.
Why are you making YouTube videos about immortality?
